Two million meals – MESSAGES FROM GAZA NOW – October 2023 – March 2024

13 March 2024

2 Million Meals

Two million meals will arrive for the Gazan people in 60 days, after the installation of the temporary floating seaport.

Ok people of Gaza, you are superior, everyone knows that! You can wait without food for 60 days, that’s easy!

And yes, 2 million meals should be enough for 2.3 million people.

And yes, one meal per day should be enough, you can survive with it.

And yes, you should be grateful for 2 million meals every day.

We know that we did not mention the water, we believe you can live without it. Palestinians are superior!

No sanitation as well! We believe you can manage.

No health treatment? You have already been without this luxury for 6 months, who needs it? Only soft people in the West. You can live without it.

We did not mention education? Really? Never mind. How has education helped your people before? Most Palestinians are well educated and yet they can’t find jobs, so there is no need to waste time on education.

Yes, shelter. For sure we know you will manage to live in the rubble and in tents. You  have already proved that you can for the last 5 months.

Palestinians of Gaza, enough complaining! We expect your thanks and gratitude for the 2 million meals that you will receive in 60 days.

Stop killing you, your children, and your women? In fact, we can’t guarantee anything.

Ramadan – MESSAGES FROM GAZA NOW – October 2023 – March 2024

11 March 2024

We Used to Have Ramadan

The month of Ramadan for Muslims is a very special and important month. Muslims around the world celebrate it in many ways, and all Muslims fast from dawn to sunset. Who doesn’t know that?

In Gaza too, we used to have a month of Ramadan, and we would begin preparing for it several days in advance. 

We used to buy special decorations and hang them in the streets and inside our homes.

We used to buy special lamps made in Ramadan especially for children.

We used to make Qatayef (very sweet pastry stuffed with nuts and honey) or buy it in Ramadan.

We used to make special meals and invite sisters and brothers and friends to eat and celebrate the month of Ramadan together.

We used to go out and have our sunset meal at the beach if Ramadan fell in the summer or go to restaurants if it was winter.

We used to spend more money in Ramadan because the sunset meal is made up of many different dishes, more than at any other time of the year.

After the sunset meal, children would go out into the streets with their Ramadan lamps celebrating, playing, and arguing over who had the nicest lamp.

Two hours before sunset, we used to take our children to the market to buy the evening’s needs, but mostly to spend and waste the time until sunset.

At Ramadan, families visit each other and exchange gifts between relatives and friends more than at any other time of the year.

At Ramadan people feel more like giving, so poor people receive more charity.

Children love Ramadan and wait for it, especially since it is followed by the festival of Eid, one of the two main feasts for Muslims.

We used to have Ramadan and after the sunset meal, all the families would be stuck in front of their TVs watching soap operas made especially for Ramadan.

Today is the first day of Ramadan.

People do not have any Ramadan decorations.

Children have no Ramadan lamps.

Families do no not have enough food.

There are no markets to purchase things, or to spend time at before sunset.

There are no visits for families or friends.

No gifts are given out.

Poor people do not find any one to give them charity, all people are in need of charity.

Today is the first day of Ramadan and there are no restaurants to have a meal inside, no beach to have a meal outside at sunset.

Ramadan came and there is no electricity, so no TVs and no soap operas to watch.

We used to have Ramadan, but there is no Ramadan this year.

They stole Ramadan from us. They stole the leisure and fun from our children. They stole our lives.

A memory – MESSAGES FROM GAZA NOW – October 2023 – March 2024

9 March 2024

A Memory

In 1989, l was 19 years old, and I left school for work in Israel. For Palestinians, working in Israel means only manual labor, as farmers, carpenters, mechanics, collies, cleaners, construction workers, washing dishes in restaurants, (no shame at all), and of course we are not registered in the Israeli workers unions. We have no rights other than the agreed salary, no health insurance, not any type of compensation for the end of service or for work injuries. Of course, jobs in engineering, teaching, the medical professions, and so on, are not allowed for Palestinians from Gaza and the West bank.

I had been working in a blacksmith’s. The owner was a very kind and friendly Israeli man, who originally came from Poland as a young man in 1951 with his family. He participated in the 1956 and 1973 wars as well as the invasion of Lebanon in 1982.

Once he told me in a very friendly way, “Hossam, I like you, you are a good young man, you don’t make trouble. But you know, your people are not like you. They make trouble for our army in Gaza and the West Bank. You know that if your people were clever enough and united with us, we could control the world. Your people with their good manual skills and we with our brains, we really could control the world. Just accept the fact that we are cleverer and let us make the strategic decisions.”

The following week I was in Gaza, writing graffiti against the Israeli occupation on the walls of Gaza City, and for that I was arrested for 9 months by the Israeli government.

What to answer when you have no answer – MESSAGES FRM GAZA NOW – October 2023 – March 2024

8 March 2024

What to Answer When You Have No Answer

All parents in all cultures struggle with the questions raised by their children at different ages, questions like: where do we come from? What is God? Will we go to hell if we lie?

Some are clever or educated enough to provide some answers, but many get stuck and give no answers or at least provide stupid answers. We parents know that, and even so, we fall into this trap.

In Rafah, although it is still the least destroyed city in the Gaza Strip, you can’t walk 100 meters without passing a destroyed home or a bombed building.

I was walking with my brother-in-law and his 8-year-old daughter towards the market, trying to find some sugar at whatever price to make something sweet for the children on the weekend, when we passed by a huge, destroyed building. Saba, the 8-year-old asked, “How did they bring people out from under this rubble?” Her father was confused, he lied, and said there were no people when the Israelis bombed this building.

“What about that one?” she asked, pointing at another destroyed building. Her father again, said that it was empty, too.

The 8-year-old girl said, “Hmmm… but then, when were all those children killed?!!”

Her father and I were astonished, we had no answer.

Saba said, “I’m 8, but I’m not stupid!”

By the way, we did not find any sugar in the market, and we went back with nothing.

8 mars 2024

Que répondre quand on n’a pas de réponse ?

Tous les parents, dans toutes les cultures, se débattent avec les questions soulevées par leurs enfants à différents âges, des questions telles que : d’où venons-nous ? Qu’est-ce que Dieu ? Ira-t-on en enfer si l’on ment ?

Certains sont suffisamment intelligents ou éduqués pour apporter des réponses, mais beaucoup restent bloqués et ne donnent aucune réponse, ou du moins donnent des réponses stupides. Nous, les parents, le savons, et pourtant, nous tombons dans ce piège.

À Rafah, bien que ce soit la ville la moins détruite de la bande de Gaza, on ne peut pas marcher 100 mètres sans passer devant une maison détruite ou un bâtiment bombardé.

Je marchais avec mon beau-frère et sa fille de 8 ans vers le marché en essayant de trouver du sucre à n’importe quel prix, pour faire quelque chose de sucré pour les enfants pendant le week-end, lorsque nous sommes passés devant un énorme bâtiment détruit. Saba, la fillette de 8 ans, a demandé : « Comment ont-ils fait pour sortir les gens de sous les décombres ? ». Son père était confus, il a menti et a dit qu’il n’y avait personne lorsque les Israéliens avaient bombardé ce bâtiment.

« Et celui-là ? » demande-t-elle en montrant un autre bâtiment détruit. Son père lui répond à nouveau qu’il était vide lui aussi.

La fillette de 8 ans a répondu : « Hmmm… mais alors, quand tous ces enfants ont-ils été tués ?! »

Son père et moi étions étonnés, nous n’avions pas de réponse.

Saba a dit : « J’ai 8 ans, mais je ne suis pas stupide ! »

D’ailleurs, nous n’avons pas trouvé de sucre au marché, et nous sommes repartis sans rien.

8 mars 2024

Que répondre quand on n’a pas de réponse ?

Tous les parents, dans toutes les cultures, se débattent avec les questions soulevées par leurs enfants à différents âges, des questions telles que : d’où venons-nous ? Qu’est-ce que Dieu ? Ira-t-on en enfer si l’on ment ?

Certains sont suffisamment intelligents ou éduqués pour apporter des réponses, mais beaucoup restent bloqués et ne donnent aucune réponse, ou du moins donnent des réponses stupides. Nous, les parents, le savons, et pourtant, nous tombons dans ce piège.

À Rafah, bien que ce soit la ville la moins détruite de la bande de Gaza, on ne peut pas marcher 100 mètres sans passer devant une maison détruite ou un bâtiment bombardé.

Je marchais avec mon beau-frère et sa fille de 8 ans vers le marché en essayant de trouver du sucre à n’importe quel prix, pour faire quelque chose de sucré pour les enfants pendant le week-end, lorsque nous sommes passés devant un énorme bâtiment détruit. Saba, la fillette de 8 ans, a demandé : « Comment ont-ils fait pour sortir les gens de sous les décombres ? ». Son père était confus, il a menti et a dit qu’il n’y avait personne lorsque les Israéliens avaient bombardé ce bâtiment.

« Et celui-là ? » demande-t-elle en montrant un autre bâtiment détruit. Son père lui répond à nouveau qu’il était vide lui aussi.

La fillette de 8 ans a répondu : « Hmmm… mais alors, quand tous ces enfants ont-ils été tués ?! »

Son père et moi étions étonnés, nous n’avions pas de réponse.

Saba a dit : « J’ai 8 ans, mais je ne suis pas stupide ! »

D’ailleurs, nous n’avons pas trouvé de sucre au marché, et nous sommes repartis sans rien.

Little Stories – MESSAGES FROM GAZA NOW – October 2023 – March 2024

6 March 2024

Little Stories

Since the start of the war, I have been writing only what I see, what I feel, what I witness, avoiding writing what I hear. But there are thousands of little stories that can’t be ignored.

A colleague from Khan Younis told me this: 

“I left home at the beginning of the invasion of Khan Younis and came to Rafah with my family. We spent two days on the street before we managed to find a tent. Yesterday we went back to Khan Younis. There is no home; my home, my street, all the buildings on my street were destroyed. In fact, they were smashed, and no one can recognise the street or the locations of the houses.”

A friend from Abasan, east of Khan Younis village:

 

“As soon as we learned that the Israeli army left the village, we went back. My home was not there. People were in the streets collecting bodies, yes, bodies of people who had been dead for days and even weeks. They were left there. Many had been partly eaten by street dogs and cats. A woman recognised her husband from his shirt, there was no face, no skin.”

A man from Gaza told us: 

“There were some people between Gaza City and Nuseirat camp, in the middle area, on the sea road waiting for people leaving from Gaza City and the north to go south. They were waiting with water and bread and some food to give. A woman arrived, so skinny, very exhausted. They welcomed her and gave her some food. She grabbed a piece of bread and was eating it with tears, repeating the word, — ‘Bread, bread, three weeks without bread! No one knows what it means to feed on grass and animal food, except the ones who must do it! Bread, bread!’ — And she kept crying.”

At the Alnajjar hospital, a 65-year-old man was arrested for 3 weeks by the Israeli army. No one could figure out what type of torture he had been exposed to. The man was not speaking, he had scars on his wrists, on his feet, on his nose, and his eyes were wide open looking everywhere as if he was looking for someone or at somebody with fear. 

According to UNICEF, 17,000 children have been orphaned in Gaza since the 7th October 2023. 

A man said:

“My father refused to leave his home in Khan Younis. When we went back home three weeks later, we found our father shot in the head, dead for more than a week. His body smelled.”

A boy said:

 “When we left Khuza (a village of Khan Younis), I could not find my cat, she was hiding somewhere, and we had to leave. We went back yesterday, three weeks later and I found my cat dead in the kitchen.”

Calling my brother in Gaza: 

“How are you?”

 

“Very bad.” 

“Sorry for the stupid question. How are you doing?”

“Dying with my children, silently.” 

“Did you go where the food was air dropped, maybe you could get something?” 

“I’d rather see my children living one day more even hungry than to see them shot or stabbed over some food that we might or might not get.”

Air strikes kill, air food drops kill more – MESSAGES FROM GAZA NOW – October 2023 – March 2024

4 March 2024

Air Strikes Kill, Air Food Drops Kill More

Since October 7, 2023, constant air strikes on Gaza have not stopped. When an air strike hits a home, a school, a hospital, a mosque, hundreds of people are killed and injured.

When Jordan, Egypt, France, US, UAE drop food from airplanes, this also kills people instead of feeding them.

How?

Hundreds of thousands of people in Gaza City and the north have no access to any food or basic needs. When food aid provided by the UNRWA arrives at one spot on the edge of Gaza City, a few thousand of the hundreds of thousands of people are waiting. As soon as the trucks of aid arrive, people jump on the trucks grabbing the aid, each one taking whatever he can, people start fighting each other, injuring each other, killing each other over a sack of bread flour or any kind of food. No system of distribution of aid in Gaza and the north, no authority, no UNRWA, no entity is able or allowed to manage food distribution. Israel has prevented any such system from being put into place.

The same thing happens with food air drops. They create chaos, anarchy, and disputes, with many people injured and killed. Big families, individuals with guns, people use knives, cutting each other over food. What to expect from hungry people?

Small families, weak people are left behind, they can’t compete, they suffer hunger quietly.

Food air drops kill in another way. They spare the Israelis from their obligation to allow access to food and basic needs for the starving civilians.

Food air drops kill because the quantities dropped are not feeding even hundreds of people.

Food air drops kill because people’s needs are far more than just food; medicine, water, education, safety, freedom and much more, and these are basic human rights.

Food air drops are only a way for some hypocritical regimes to show off. They know very well that this is not the solution, and that they must oblige Israel to allow free access to all human rights for civilians, not only in Gaza and the north, but in all of Palestine.

In the news/Not in the news – MESSAGES FROM GAZA NOW – October 2023 – March 2024

In the news / Not in the news 

In the news:

2 babies died due to dehydration and severe malnutrition in the north of Gaza.

18 bodies were collected from the streets of Bani Suheila after the withdrawal of the Israeli army, including 4 women and 7 children.

25 kg of bread flour cost 7000 Shekels ($2000) in Gaza City. 

The office of UN Humanitarian Affairs says that Israeli military operations have completely destroyed the agriculture and food production chain in Gaza.

More than 50,000 people are on the verge of starvation.

40 people are leaving Gaza for Egypt today. Each one paid $5000 to cross the border. 

USA officials: “Israel must make more of an effort to increase humanitarian aid to reach Gaza.” (This is call number 100.)

The UK representative at the Security Council said: “Humanitarian agencies are unable to bring aid to civilians in Gaza. We urge Israel to allow more aid into Gaza.”

Bombardments on several places in Khan Younis, Rafah, Deir El Balah and the north of Gaza.

Local officials: 30 hospitals out of a total of 35 hospitals are out of operation in Gaza due to Israeli military operations.

A man died in a dispute over air-dropped aid in Gaza City.

 

Netanyahu: “I don’t know where Biden got the news about Monday’s ceasefire agreement.”

No humanitarian aid has reached Gaza and the north since 23rd January 2024. 

Qatar foreign affairs minister: “The international community has failed to protect civilians in Gaza.”

The daily counting of Palestinian causalities: 76 killed and 110 injured during the last 24 hours.

Total number of Palestinian causalities since 7 October 2023: 29954 people killed and 70325 injured. 

112 people killed and 700 injured by the Israeli army while they were waiting for aid on the sea road northwest of Gaza city.

 

Not in the news: 

More than 1.3 million pupils and students have not received any kind of education for more than 5 months.

The complete absence of authority and the order of law encourages thieves to steal anything from homes and individuals, as well as humanitarian aid, cars and anything they can get their hands on. 

Gangs and thieves of humanitarian aid control the market and manipulate the prices.

The local authorities and the police do not control anything. In the absence of a system of law, some police have begun to take the law into their own hands. The police have killed at least 56 thieves since early January.

The police appear from time to time in the market bringing with them groups of thieves (most of them young men) and they beat them heavily with sticks, leaving them with broken arms and legs.

There are thousands of children everywhere in the streets with miserable clothes and no shoes, begging for food.

There are hundreds of stories of rape and sexual harassment in shelters and in tents.

Stories of killing with a history of revenge almost every day.

 

Thieves broke into a home and killed the homeowner in front of his children and stole what they wanted from the home.

Air-dropped aid has led to disputes over food with people shooting at each other.

There are allegations of corruption in food aid distribution in many local organisations.

Drivers for UN agencies and municipalities are stealing fuel and reselling it in the market for 20 times the original price. 

To travel out of Gaza, each person must pay $5000 – $7000 for the so-called coordination to get out of Gaza. 

All the trucks carrying aid from the Rafah Crossing to inside the Gaza Strip have broken windows because people stone the trucks to force them to stop. Then they jump on the truck and steal whatever they can (this has become a phenomenon of organized crime).

Local merchants guard their trucks with gunmen, who open fire if ever anyone tries to steal anything. Many people have been injured and several people killed during the last 2 months. 

On a main street in Rafah in daylight, a man and his wife in their car were stopped by gunmen, who forced them to leave the car. They stole their belongings and the car. The looters were not even masked. 

My colleague Wala’a Saada was killed yesterday in a bombing of a mosque. She lived with her parents in a tent nearby the mosque. Wala’a is number 5 of my colleagues who have been killed since the start of this genocide.

I am afraid for my life and for my wife’s life. 

Unaccompanied child – MESSAGES FROM GAZA NOW – October 2023 – March 2024

27 February 2024

Unaccompanied child 

Today at 9:25 I received a phone call from a colleague from the Norwegian Refugee Council asking for immediate intervention for an unaccompanied child. She said, 

“There is a child left at Yibna school.” 

According to what she heard; he was brought to the school by the ICRC. 

“This is an absolute urgency!” 

I tried to get more information, but my colleague had nothing but a name and very limited information. The boy had been completely alone in the streets for 11 days, having left Shifa hospital in Gaza more than a month ago. His parents were killed there. He is very skinny, and it is believed that he has severe malnutrition. 

I have a staff member, a counsellor at Yibna school, who I tried to call. But since the war started on Gaza, communications have been very difficult. I could not wait. Yibna school is 20 minutes walking. As I walked, I kept trying to reach my colleague. I arrived at the school-turned-shelter in 15 minutes, went directly to the management office, and introduced myself as a child protection officer from the MA’AN Development Centre. Luckily, they knew of me and my work. 

I did not need to ask about the child, he was there in the room, sitting on a chair eating some rice and cooked beans. He was eating as if he had never eaten before, eating as if it might be the last time he would eat. I moved my eyes away from him, did not want him to feel that he was being watched. 

I addressed the shelter manager: “Did you call the child protection officer at the Ministry of social development?”

The manager: “Should we?” 

“This is the only thing you should do. The Ministry is responsible for unaccompanied children; they will bring him to the SOS Village.”

I called the child protection department, and Mr. Attaf, the shelter manager, told them about the child. They will send a female child protection officer in minutes. 

The child finished eating and started staring at the ceiling. I got close to him. 

“Hi, my name is Hossam.”

He moved his head down slowly, looked at me and said, “I am Ahmad.”

“Where are from, Ahmad?”

“From Gaza.”

“You are alone, where is your family?”

“They are dead.”

I stopped, I could not ask anything more.  The child was speaking flatly, with no feelings, no reactions. 

“How did you get here?”

“They were shot dead.” 

Silence… 

“We left Shifa hospital by the sea road, they shoot at us, my mother, my father, my older brother, people ran everywhere, I ran, I ran, I ran!”

Silence…

“Do you have family in Rafah? Uncles, aunts?”

He looked at me, then looked at the ceiling, not speaking for a while. I kept waiting, not talking. 

“I slept in the streets, in Nuseirat, in Zawaida, in Dir Al Balah. I was afraid, I am not afraid anymore, I am cold.”

“I will get you a jacket now, and shoes.” (He was not wearing shoes, his feet looked very dark, almost black. I hope it is only dirt and not something else…)

“Listen, a good lady will come now from the ministry. She will take care of you. Is that ok?”

Silence…

“Ok.”

“Do you feel any pain?”

“Yes, my head, my legs, my stomach.”

 

“Don’t worry, we will take you to hospital for checkup. Ok?”

“Not Shifa hospital!”

“No, no, not Shifa hospital.”

“Ok.”

 

I really don’t know what this child went through. I don’t know how many days he was walking. I don’t know how many hours he walked. I don’t know what nightmares he had. I did not want to keep talking with him about it.

He lifted his head again to the ceiling. I was speechless. He needs a specialised psychiatrist, and I did not want to take the risk of asking wrong questions. 

“Do you want some tea, hot tea?”

He moved his head with a “yes” gesture. 

The manager of the shelter was clever, while I was talking with the child he went out and came back with a jacket and shoes. He gave them to me, and I gave them to Ahmad, who took them and started putting them on. No reaction, mechanical movements without any reactions. 

The Ministry child protection officer arrived, introduced herself, and showed her badge. I moved aside to give her the space to do her job. Then I left. 

Today I called the ministry to check on Ahmad, he has been taken care of. They took him to the hospital. He was, indeed, malnourished, and they gave him some supplements. Then he was brought to the SOS Village, an organisation hosting orphans and unaccompanied children. He is in good hands for the time being. 

They will start looking for any immediate relatives and try to integrate him into his own family, otherwise he will stay at SOS until further notice. 

To date, SOS has received 66 unaccompanied children. How many children like Ahmad are there who have not been reached and are now left alone? Who knows?

 

Shrapnel- Splinters MESSAGES FROM GAZA NOW -October 2023 – March 2024

24th February 2024

Shrapnel – Splinters

Hossam wrote this piece as if it was Basil Marquosi speaking.  It accompanies these drawing that were sent at the same time.

Presentation – Basil (border)

Shrapnel all the way, splinters all the time; not only shrapnel, cutting people into pieces, not only splinters cutting buildings in half. People themselves are splintering. Life itself is splintering. Nothing is complete, nothing is perfect, everything is splintered. The human beings, the buildings, the streets, the trees, the tents, Human Rights. Life itself has become shrapnel, splinters and pieces. 

Who is going to collect back into one standing piece, a child who has lost his parents, a man who has lost his beloved wife, a mother who has lost her baby, or a worker whose source of livelihood was lost, or a patient who lost his hospital or a  factory owner whose factory was destroyed, or the owner of a house he built with years of sweat that now he sees in ruins?

All my life as a Palestinian, as an artist, I did my best to draw complete images. Today, with this genocide, I am trying to bring pieces back, shrapnel and splinters, to become a single complete image. Will I succeed?

Little Dreams – MESSAGES FROM GAZA NOW – October 2023 – February 2024

Little dreams

22 February 2024

I don’t dream of going back home anymore; it is obviously impossible. Home is only 35 km from Rafah, but passing through the Inferno of Dante looks easier than reaching my home. So, I gave up this dream.

Meeting my daughter in Egypt is also another impossible dream. How can I secure $20.000 to pay the bribe for the Egyptians to let me out of Gaza with my wife and my mother? So, I gave up and I accept calling her by phone or via WhatsApp every few days.

I don’t dream of proper health treatment for my mother while the health system in Gaza has been systematically destroyed, and hospitals are barely able to treat the thousands of injured people. So, l accept treating her at home without proper examinations or blood tests, heart scans, blood pressure tests or chest X-rays. For the time being, she is better.

I don’t dream of waking up in my bed, going out to walk my dog, and returning to prepare myself to go to my job, my office. l accept living in an apartment with nothing but a mattress, blanket, some clothes, and a few kitchen items.

I don’t dream of planning a holiday out of Gaza with my wife and my daughter in the summer. Instead, I accept whatever comes, unable to take any decision in my life as life itself is not guaranteed at all.

My dream now is to see a ceasefire, an end to the killing, bombing frozen, and children’s fears of airstrikes and shelling behind us.

I dream to be able to secure our daily food, whatever food.

I dream of securing a tent in case we are displaced another time, because there is no other place to go any more, and wherever we go, we will need a tent.

I dream!! In fact, I don’t dream. I lost the ability of dreaming I lost a big part of me. Not death, but for sure, not a life. Just living through what comes and what I am forced to go through, day by day, uncertain of anything.

Uncertainty is the enemy of dreams.